feeling exhausted...

now i know wat they mean by after SOT is another thing...

ya...

and i am feeling tired...

so many things been happening...

one by one... i am trying to overcome... i believe i will overcome....

Graduate le!!!

I graduate le!!!

Team 27 graduate le!!!

The combo had graduated le!!!

W356 SOT Students graduate le!!!

healthy body....

now i understand the importance of a healthy body...

a good health... a good body... a good temple..

tat's when u can serve God...

i miss school... but i can't attend...

i dun wanna be ms piggy...

haiz...

3 more weeks...

3 more weeks till end of SOT...

through out the entire SOT... i experienced the disappointments are more than i had for the past 24 years...

3 more weeks...

looking forward... but at the same time... missing it...

how ironic on how 1 thing can influence many many feelings...

the well...

night may be very long... and it is very cold...

once in a while... u experience the sunlight... some warmth... some blessing... but it will cause some of the water to evaporate...

well... it also means i am a little lower from the top...

more to come more to come...

Sinner

Sinner... How long have I been a sinner....

Counted... And then I realised...

That's how long I have been...

Well...

Trekking in the water of the well...

So cold... so lonely... so dark... coz it is at nite...

No one around... everyone left me... I am all alone...

I feel so tired even by trekking...

Then He said... why dun u float... my strong arms will carry you till you are ready to go again...

Lord.... I am waiting for the day to see the sunlight... the day i can feel your warmth...

Lord... I thank you for all the visions...

dark skies

the sky without the stars is very dark...

the black clouds blocked out all the sunlight...

will i see the sunlight... or will i be afraid to see the sunlight anymore...

everyone has a new chance... has a new light...

do i get one....

or maybe... i dun want...

沒有星星的天空

simplicity died... murdered by complexity...

maybe simplicity... rather die in the hands of complexity...

i dun like 'tang xin feng bao'...

i dun like the ending between Alfred and Chang Zai Xin....

CAAS Dinner and Dance

well... it's a flashback nite... retro without disco ball... come on...

Queenie and myself on the way to Swissotel...

long time never see Joseph le... like a young bro to me during the Orchid camp...

so happen that Queenie and myself got to know him at 2 different occasions...

look at Melvin...he bought this hairdo... look like England soldier... haha!

and look at Alvin... he is from Hippies time xia... haha!

PS.. my dimple is so obvious here... i like... hee!

pillars

pillars are structure that hold the building up...

the number of pillars are calculated based on the weight of the building...

if one pillar is down.. the building will become unstable and cause danger to the people in the building...

just one pillar...

the important of one pillar...

The Well

I have been sitting in the empty well for some time.

What I have is limited fresh air and sunlight.

I wanted to have more of the fresh air and sunlight, and of course more of the things I did not have in the well.

I tried to climb out of the well myself, but only to find more bruises, more bleeding and and more tiredness.

I feel so tired that I decided to shout "I want to get out of here to the place up there!! How???"

Suddenly, it came the rain, it started off with a drizzle, then it gets heavier and heavier.

I was thinking, why did the rain come of all times???

The rain started to fill the well.

I started to struggle and kept complaining why did the rain come.

I began to feel physically drained.

Then suddenly I realized, it seems like I am going up the well.

I decided not to struggle, but to trekking water.

Trekking water doesn't only depends on one's skill of the feet, but also the coordination with the flow of the water.

Finally the water overflowed from the well, and there I am.

Standing on fresh dry ground, breathing in fresh air and letting the unlimited sunlight to shine on me.

I have emerged from the bottom of the well!!!

You must be wondering why I would be writing something like tat in my blog... well... this is a vision that God had given me... and the understanding of this vision... see below in red bahz...

I have been sitting in the empty well for some time.
(In my own comfort zone)

What I have is limited fresh air and sunlight.
(Complacement about what I have but indeed I dun have much and I have limited capacity)

I wanted to have more of the fresh air and sunlight, and of course more of the things I did not have in the well.
(I am hungering and thirsty for more than what I have now, I want to expand my capacity)

I tried to climb out of the well myself, but only to find more bruises, more bleeding and and more tiredness.
(I wanted to do it on my own strength but to no avail)

I feel so tired that I decided to shout "I want to get out of here to the place up there!! How???"
(Finally I decided to seek God and shout out to Him)

Suddenly, it came the rain, it started off with a drizzle, then it gets heavier and heavier.
(A lot of obstacles and problems, trials and tribulations starts to come)

I was thinking, why did the rain come of all times???
(Why did all the trials and tribulations come at this time?)

The rain started to fill the well.
(All the trials and tribulations started to drown me and fill up my life.)

I started to struggle and kept complaining why did the rain come.
(I was lost, didn't know what to do and only started to blame on God)

I began to feel physically drained.
(I was still using my own strength)

Then suddenly I realized, it seems like I am going up the well.
(I started to realize that I do have little breakthroughs here and there.)

I decided not to struggle, but to trek water.
(I decided to depend on God's strength and not my own strength)

Trekking water doesn't only depends on one's skill of the feet, but also the coordination with the flow of the water.
(flow with the Holy Spirit)

Finally the water overflowed from the well, and there I am.
(When the trials and tribulations ends, the breakthrough shall come)

Standing on fresh dry ground, breathing in fresh air and letting the unlimited sunlight to shine on me.
(Here comes my breakthrough)

I have emerged from the bottom of the well!!!
(Breakthrough and move on to the next level)

Amen!!!

Nostalgic...

It's been 11 years since my grandma passed away... today went to visit her... hmmm.... after tat went to Hougang to walk around... and actually saw some things...

ice-kacang??? soft drinks???

try photocopying or printing using this so-called machine...

i love phonez... but all these... maybe not...

check out these marriage certificates...

can u imagine ur driving license is this size???

and u got to take highway code... the combination of basic and final theory...

love taking pictures??

old games???

magazines?? her world?? seventeen??

i collect movie stubs... to remember every single show... to remember the memories i have with every single movie...

Today...

today had been a very very long day....

first thing in the morning i went children's church to serve... well... kids are kids... but can u imagine when they worship... oh man.. the presence... wow...

after tat... i received a gift from a friend.... so ccuuuttteee.... hee!!!

i usually collect eeyores... but you noe wat... sometimes.. it's not about the thing... but the action and the thought... hee...

oh... and the second gift... was from my cell group.. they actually paid for my july school fees... thank you so much... actually i was very shocked... and didn't noe wat to do... but to receive with open arms... thank you so muchie!!!


And Stuart.... my 'wake me up' buddy in SOT... going army le... so next week onward... no more hair le...

after service... went to the best restaurant for the best dinner... Reuben's Restaurant... hee!!! again he whipped up a perfect meal... i was served with cream of mushroom... so well done that's even better than soup spoon... next was spinach salad... just love greens.... his salads are always so good... oh man... although i didn't get to eat the garlic bread.. it look so good and smells so good...

then of course... main course... beef stew with real mash potato... think i long time never cook beef stew too... hmmm... maybe i should cook it soon hor....

and of course... desert... oh man... grilled apricots with vanilla and tiramisu ice cream... blue berry... raspberry... and lots of liquer...

and we end the day by sitting under the stars... drinking coke... hee..

gift

today received a gift... small gift.. but big thought...

sooooo cuuuutttteee... hee!!!

ripples...

u won't noe how many ripples can be caused by one decision...

Pork Curry...

Just finish cooking pork curry...


回味還是回憶....

第二天...

只是第二天...

為什糜像是第二年...

whole day...

today... i stayed home for the entire day...

feeling so sick that i actually stayed home...

been sleeping and waking up... sleeping and waking up....

think i need alot of rest....

although i'm feeling down... but... ya... got to be strong for others rite???

病了... 真的病了...

我只是在等我的藥發作...

看不慣的東西... 讓我更反感...

我不行了...

我真的病了...

我真的倒了...

Do wat u Preach...

i will only be convinced by people who do wat they preach...

apparently... some ppl just do not understand the meaning of this phrase... so CONTRADICTING...

but what to do.... they are humans in the first place... humans that make mistakes and hurt ppl around them.... ha!

anyway... i've decided... i am going to carry on with what i am suppose to do... not going to leave... but going to build...

my efforts shall not go to waste... and the vision shall come to pass...

once again... i am not asking for approval... not even understanding... i am just asking for silence... silence in front and at the back...

grieve

1.	to feel grief or great sorrow

2.	to distress mentally; cause to feel grief or sorrow

3.	to oppress or wrong.

Batam Mission Trip - 21 Jun to 22 Jun

ready to set off for Batam...

on the way to hotel...

first stop... KFC!!!

after youth conference...

Team 27...

just waiting for time to pass by...

waiting for the van to go church...

just love to 自拍...

preparing for the next service...

i think this pic is beautiful...

end of mission trip batam..

'shuai' ge finishing off root beer float... yummy...

"debrief" after lunchie....

getting ready for shopping... hee...

let's go shopping...

jiale and myself... after A&W...

indeed... we spoilt the game machine in the arcade...

last trip to KFC before heading back home...

God says the first will be the last and the last will be the first... yeah... we were the last... but we got the VIP seats...

自作自彈自唱

tat's why i love the sea.... beautiful...